back from the “mountain top”

I have just gotten back from the “mountain top.”  That’s how Stephanie and I describe going to see our teachers, Tias and Surya.  Amazing things happen and stuff shifts around when we go to Santa Fe, New Mexico.

This week was all about the subtle body and deeply rooted holding patterns in the physical body that we may not be aware of; when we start releasing that – whoa Nelly.  It’s super fantastic, annoyingly frightful, and every other descriptive word one can think of.

I just had an awesome revelation this morning now that I’m back in good old Brooklyn, ah home… I received an early birthday gift from my mom yesterday. When I opened the box, two of the items were broken.  I felt so bad for my mom.  She had gone through all that effort and time to send me a gift and in transit some of it had been broken. I didn’t want to tell her that I felt so bad.  But I did tell her, as I thanked her for the amazingly beautiful gifts, that did not break and then she felt so bad for me because part of my gift had broken. She kept saying, “I must not have wrapped it well enough.”  Then I felt even worse that she felt bad and we went back and forth for a bit and neither one of us had anything to do with breaking the items….  As I was reflecting on that interaction this morning the revelation came.  It’s not the item that I am sad about, my mother has given me things before that have broken, it’s the connection of the item(s) to my mother and the impermance of the life we live. I don’t like to think of her not being here on this earth and yet I know we do not live forever. Hello deep holding pattern… For me, it clarifies why I get so upset when I lose or break something (or when the post office breaks something) that had been given to me, if and when this person leaves my life what will I have to remember them by?  What can I cling on to?  Oh right… I’ve chosen the path of “non clinging.”

Like I said, going to the “mountain top” shifts you body, mind and soul like you would not believe.  One better be prepared to embark on this path we call “yoga.”